As I mentioned in my last post, I learned a ton from William Polonsky during the CWD conference. There is an interesting thing about going as an adult to a conference originally designed for parents and their children. You find out that either 1) you never actually grew up, or 2) we never grow out of the things associated with daily life with diabetes.
Although there are many things we would all probably like to change about our meters, a session called The Great Meter Makeover is not about what you think it is about. According to Dr. Polonsky it is about “transforming that annoying little machine from foe to friend.” It is about changing how I think about blood glucose monitoring and changing what I do.
First, Dr. Polonsky reminded us about all the reasons we hate love our meters. Some of this, again, was supposed to be for parents and their children but I found it applied to me as well.
- you have to use it
- it can make you feel bad about yourself
- it gives your parents an opportunity to be angry at you (or in my case, for me to be angry with myself)
- it reminds you and the people around you that you have diabetes
- it is almost always inconvenient
That about covers it, don’t you think?
Many of the points of advice to ‘makeover’ those problems were family specific – such as making it an expected household chore like making the bed with the same results for failing to do expected chores. However, there were several other ideas that were certainly a great reminder for my daily control.
it is important to congratulate the act of blood glucose monitoring, not the result. How many times have I said that I need to test my blood sugar? If it is a test, what does that mean? It means I can fail. The act of testing assessing your blood sugar is what should be congratulated, not the result.
Along with focusing on the act and not the result comes being reasonable about blood glucose expectations. Do I want my blood glucose numbers to be perfect 100% of the time? Yes, of course I do. But the problem with perfection is that it is inflexible, rigid, and often unattainable, among other things. Perfection is not possible and not necessary
So if I am not not trying to establish perfect blood glucose results, what is my goal? According to Dr. Polonsky, that goal is safety. It is establishing that fine balance between the best blood glucose results possible, as few severe lows as possible, and having a life.
When I get out my meter and see a result that I don’t like (high or low), asking why only leads to frustration. Why could be because the temperature is changing, the fast food chain spiked my soda, or the fact that I am wearing blue socks – reasons that are beyond my control and/or things that I cannot change.
If I instead ask, what now, it is within my control. How does that play out day-to-day? In my opinion, it is not that different of a question, but the psychological implications are huge for me.
High several days in a row after breakfast? What now? Should I adjust my basal insulin to counteract my dawn phenomenon? Should I adjust my bolus because I might be less insulin sensitive in the morning? Should I start eating a different breakfast?
Expecting to be in range and surprised by a number on my meter. The number has already shown up on my meter – I can’t change it. So what now? Do I need to wash my hands? Do I take a correction dose or do I have enough insulin on board already? Should I delay my next meal to wait until I am in range?
It put me in control of a disease that is so often uncontrollable.