Sometimes my brain gets stuck. I don’t really have a better way to describe it. I start to worry about something and I just can’t stop.
For example, the minute my head hits the pillow at night I start thinking about what I have to do the next day.
I think about e-mails I have to write and what they should say.
I think about conversations I should have and actual things I should say.
I think about the order in which I should do the tasks of the next day.
I think about what would happen if I had a bad hypoglycemia episode and there was no one here to help me.
I think about my grocery shopping list.
I think about why one of my cats won’t stop peeing next to the litter box and how to make sure my apartment won’t smell like pee.
I think about what would happen if the rapture happened that night.
I think about what I will eat the next day.
I think about my bank account and my budget.
I think about what I will wear in the morning.
These aren’t fleeting thoughts. My brain gets stuck on them and I can’t sleep. Nerd alert but Siri helps a little bit by getting my thoughts on an actual list or letting me set reminders by just saying things out loud.
There is plan that seems easier and costs less money. I just have to figure out how make myself do it when I need it most.
“I sought and he answered me
and delivered me from all of my fears.”
~ Psalm 34:4